Him: Tired? Of what?
Her: Of this. Of us.
Him: Us? You know there is no us. there has never been us.
Her: Well pardon my lack of vocabulary to describe this weird relatiendship we're having.
Him: I get your point. So you're tired?
Her: Right now? Yes. I can get the fact that there is no us. But at one point, everything is just overwhelming. I overwhelmed by the fact I love to talk to you so much, how we always find interesting topics to talk about and how we could be up all night just to talk about future we don't know to be existed yet. I overwhelmed by how I keep reminded of you after we meet, how every little thing I saw remind me of you or our jokes. Even worse, usually I remember both. I overwhelmed by the fact every single time I'm going to text you or call you or IM you, most likely you'd do that first. It's like we're meant to be, but I know we're not.
Him: I know. I get it. I always feel that way too. but you know why it won't work out.
Her: I know that you love the chase. The thing is, I do too. That's why this would be a never-ending chase. We chase each other, we play, we talk, we flirt. But when we catch one another, there would be no fun left.
Him: You know the solstice?
Her: There you go again. Giving out random facts to distract me, no, us from the main problem.
Him: No, it has something to do with us, if not the answer for this problem.Well, a solstice is an astronomical event when the Sun reaches its highest or lowest excursion. In many cultures marks either the beginning or the midpoint of winter and summer.
Her: And why should I care?
Him: In my opinion, every friendship has a solstice, if not solstices. That was the point where we realize we could be more than friend or just stay where we were. Our relatiendship, to use your word, has been through several solstices, both the highs and the lows. The winters and summers. I know I've been there when you got dumped, and vice versa. I know you always listen to my endless gibberish about my crushes and girlfriends. We've been there for each other all the time. Yet here we are, closer than friend with no relationship status.
Her: I know we have tried to be more than friends once or twice.
Him: It's about five times-ish actually, hahaha.
Her: Alright, and I know those don't work out. Once you even end up dating my cousin.
Him: Oh my, apologize for that one, really.
Her: Yeah, whatever.
Him: Anyway, the point is not every solstice mark the start of something new, a new stage. Sometimes it's just a mark of the beginning of a new season, which was really the same season we have experienced before.
Her: But as the season change, there are visible changes, you know. Flowers bloom. Snow falls.
Him: And there are changes in our solstices. We graduated, once from high school and once from college. Your first boyfriend dumped you. My ex cheated on me.
Her: You dated my cousin.
Him: Oh well, that too. You see how every point of our solstices are marked by how we stayed for each other, yet after it passed we decided to follow our own path. It's your path and my path, not our path.
Her: I guess the point is that you don't love me.
Him: That's not true. Of course I do love you. After all, any kind of friendship start out of love. It depends on us where we would lead our love.
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